March 20th Hoping and Waiting

Clayton is warming up and we are eagerly waiting for him to start to wake up.  The doctors want to reduce the medication that's keeping him in a coma.  It's so hard to wait.  My mother is there at all times at the hospital.  No one will leave him alone for fear that he'll wake up with out us there.  We want to reassure him that he'll be okay.  Most of all we really, really want him to wake up.  The doctors say that the first few hours and days are critical.  As time passes, our chances of having him wake up slowly decrease.  

He's hooked up to so many tubes and wires and things.  It's so hard to believe that he was just tinkering in the garage the other day.  I so want to wake up from this nightmare but it's been several days.  The reality that it's not a bad dream is really sinking in.

I've been spending a lot of time with Max.  He comes with me to the hospital all of the time.

Andrea helped me set up a caringbridge website today.  It was such a good idea.  I have to post a lot on it, yet. 

Aunt Franny helped me set up a lifeonrecord 800 number to give Clayton encouragement.  Everyone is leaving him messages and I'm putting them on an ipod.  We play them for him when there's no visitors.  

I'm educating myself on comas.  They say to stimulate the senses as much as possible.  They can hear you, too.  I hope the messages give him comfort and encouragement.  

Everyday, I tell him, that he needs to show us what to do.  We'll fight the good fight to keep him alive if he chooses to stay here with his.  As long as he's here, we'll do our best.